life

life...
its soo... i dont know...
You think one thing and...
it just isnt there..
its not there ever.
im sitting in my room alone right now... as usual.
actually mason is in here, but i'm alone in my mind.
im by myself in my own place.
soo lonely that i want to cry.
the office is on tv, but i can't laugh anymore
i dont laugh anymore. time is so slow and painful
i dont laugh anymore. i just cry.
pain, its what I feel.
I am so vulnarabel. Why does everything have to be like this!?
Can't I just be like everyone else. Normal. Happy.
as i look at my blank wall it reminds me of my life,
blank and horrible
please don't look at me differently.
I can keep my act going so well you will never know.
how I truley feal.









(joking)