psychologically, physically, or emotionally ill?

So thats the question, whats the answer?

I guess I'll give you background so you can interpret what the answer may be.

Today, like every weekday I work at the Middle School from 6am to 2:30 pm outside pulling weeds, etc. The last two days I have went golfing afterwards, walking 9 holes. I have played two horrible rounds of golf, about a 20 stroke difference at least for the 2 days added together compared to what I have been shooting regularly. Now here's the main information:

Today I started out playing mediocre, but not horrible. It started getting quite a bit worse after 4 or 5 holes. About the middle of the 6th hole I hit a bad shot that really made me really really angry, then my breathing kinda got abnormal and I was breathing really hard. Then in a few minutes I felt like my arms were tingly. The last three holes I focused very little, and actually got a 9 on the 7th hole.

Now here's where the question comes into play. I kept thinking that I was just acting like I was exhausted, and acting like my arms were tingly and acting like I was breathing hard because I was just so angry and wanted some kind of excuse to why I was playing bad. I mean I didn't say anything, but I felt like that might have been what I was doing. Or maybe I was possibly just actually exhausted from 10+ hours in the heat today. Or maybe I was so angry that my mind made myself feel that way.

So the question is am I psychologically screwed up because I was just making it up? Am I physically screwed up because I was in the heat too long and it just took over me? Or am I emotionally screwed up because I have the ability to be so angry that it makes me ill?

In other news, towards the end of writing this blog I have started losing my balance a bit and down feels like it is moving.



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